Quitters never win, and winners never quit...... That's what coach Frost used to always tell me ( i guess that's why he never gave up smoking, he didn't want to be called a quitter). That was my track coach back in high school. You know, I have never really enjoyed running until later on in my life when it became a stress releaser, but there was never a time that I had stopped to rest during a run before 2005.
No matter how bad it hurt, I never quit going. I couldn't allow myself to quit.
That day in 2005 changed my life forever.
It was a regular sunny day, but quite hot outside. I was about 1.5 miles into a 2 mile run and for the first time in my life up to that point, I just stopped running and began to walk. I was hurting a little bit, but no more than any other run. Something inside me just said..."fuck it". So I just walked the rest of the way home.
The reason why that day was so pivotal in my life was because from that day on, I realized that I could just give up if I didn't want to keep going.
Before that day, quitting was never an option. Walking was never an option.
After that day, I found myself questioning if I could keep going when times got tough, or if it began to hurt.
I noticed that I found myself giving up at things I never would have given up at.
It completely changed my life.
If all you know is winning, then winning is all you will do.
But the moment you let the thought of losing enter your mind, you will bring it into existence.
I regret that day in 2005, when I quit running. I wish I could take it back.
I have quit many things since then because I learned that I "could quit".
I have spent the last few years of my life trying to get back to that point in my life where quitting is not an option. I am almost there, but there are many times that I simply want to quit.
